The butterfly of regret

I never thought it is so hard...

If I could ask someone something,

Then I would ask that person to talk

About anything she wants, just don't make me talk back.

I need silence, because lately, everybody screams,

But I need music to erase my thoughts to nothing,

I need someone to talk to me,

I need these thoughts erased.

Outside is cold, and so is here,

My wishes are too far to reach

I have to wait so much,

Just to go far away from here.

It's like an echo in my brain,

I can't pretend that nothing kills my way,

I am looking back, and I see what I've lost,

How can I go back to those days?

When I haven't felt so lost in nothing else than my own thoughts.

At least I have a fact to prove,

This love that I cried so many times,

I cursed my way in love,

But past can not be changed.

I am here, all alone and I don't mind,

But what bothers me is that I lost my wings because I let you stay,

And I regret every time when I forgot,

Endless sleepless nights, tears that had broke my heart so many times,

I forgot all, staring in your eyes, then forgiving your endless lies,

I am afraid every day when I get out,

I am afraid that when I prove I am right, that I will be beat up,

I am afraid that I don't have nobody to hold me tight,

And I believed that regreting is like a butterfly,

One day, flyes and then dies, but this butterfly never died.

                                                                           (Never did, never will)